The big pivot of 2026

Around this time last year I had the same breakdown deleted my videos of over 2 years off of YouTube . I was feeling overwhelmed yet again here we are the same breakdown the same clean slate . This time things are different tho I’ve chosen to step away from over personal content , this has been a step I’ve needed to take for years now . But never had the courage to. I thought I’m obligated to be this big role model due to what I’ve survived . But overtime it became bleeding on camera for views sharing every mistake and how I was working on it . Being demonized for explosive behaviors that wer a result of my bpd . Being accused of justifying my wrong actions even tho I was trying my hardest to take accountability. The pressure was always there turning YouTube into a no longer enjoyable hell scape . It’s escalated so much that I will be heading into inpatient mental health care soon . I hope I can return to a new era a new chapter . Working hard to navigate where my content goes moving forward . Please be patient with me .